New Year’s Catching Up

I know, I know. It’s been a really long time since I last blogged. I am truly very sorry.  To be honest, I hardly have the time anymore, but we have a lot of catching up to do so lets not waste any more time.

The last topic I discussed was about no one getting back to me with my job inquiries. It was very disheartening, plus a huge waste of my time applying for a whole bunch of nothing. In fact of all the applications I sent, I only heard back from one- 3 months later! I know what you are thinking, “Man Kirsten, you mean to say that you have been job searching for almost 6 months with no response?!”  THANK GOD NO! I’d probably be in a depressed vegetative state if that were the case.
Here’s a mental image:


After months of getting no where, everything changed in a single week. The weird thing is that I had a sneaking suspicion that that particular week was THE week, you know? So remember that O was going to visit me back in the end of September/ Early October ( I don’t remember the specifics)? Well those plans fell through. I was very upset, so my family took me to see a Second City show that was passing through my home town.

* Tidbit- I love anything SNL and Second City is where a lot of cast members where trained.*

Anyways, the show was amazing, but that is not where I am getting at. My brother introduced me to the venue owner who happened to have a friend who is a producer. I got his email, and we set up a meeting. I got to pick his brain, and he gave me advice. We have had several meetings since that, and he wants me to work for him on his future projects!
However, his projects wouldn’t happen for a while, so I was still in a predicament. Randomly, I had been emailing people in the Atlanta movie biz for advice. No shock that I didn’t hear from anyone…except one. A location manager not only emailed me back, but invited me to do an interview!  I know, right?! It sounds too good to be true.  I had no idea what the job was, but I went in the next day for the “interview.” I put that word in quotation, because the whole time we just chatted about movies and goofed off.  I left feeling very excited and confident. I was on a high! O was coming home early, so I was flying in the next couple of days to road trip it back together.
About a day or two after landing in Dallas, I got the call that I got the job as a Locations Coordinator for a Lions Gate film! My start date was in December, so I had two weeks of adventure with O.  We spent a couple of days in Dallas, then we visited my Aunt in Houston. Finally, we visited the Big Easy – New Orleans! It was freezing cold and drizzling but a blast. We ate poboys and beignets, and I even gambled $1 into $30!

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Beignets at Café du Monde

It was a great trip! I loved spending time with O, because in a week, my life will be completely busy.
I’ll discuss more about my new gig in my next blog post, but I will say that it is looong hours. You are on call BUT I enjoy it very much! It took a week or two to get over the initial shock of not working for months to 12 hour days. But I am liking it more and more everyday. Filming starts next week. Zac Efron and Robert De Niro are the leads.
So life has been very busy (sometimes stressful) but good. I had a great Christmas and New Years filled with family and friends. I feel obligated to tell you my New Year’s resolution- to save as much money as possible and make the smartest financial decisions for my future. Ugh I sound like an adult huh? 2014 was a year of huge transitions from being in school, graduating, internship, job search, and now having a full time job. Lord only knows what 2015 will bring.

Hello? Is Anyone Home?

This is a picture of a black hole. In case you do not know what a black hole is according to Wikipedia, a black hole “is a region of space-time from which gravity prevents anything, including light, from escaping.”   Why am I giving you a science lesson? Well, its been about two months since my internship ended. These two months have felt like an eternity.  So what have I been doing? Constantly applying to jobs! Literally everyday! Yet, I hear back from absolutely no one. This is where the black hole comes in. I feel like I put in so much effort writing personalized cover letters and application forms, and it just gets sucked into a black hole of nothingness. I’ve applied to so many jobs, I forget all that I applied to. A part of me is optimistic that there will be a day or even a week where that I get mass responses from every job I applied for, and I would have a huge selection of interviews to choose from. I doubt it though. What am I doing wrong?! I definitely need to do a different approach, because I’m getting stir crazy at home.

It also doesn’t help that Georgia’s 8.1 percent unemployment rate is the highest in the nation… I know who I am going to vote for this upcoming election to change this.

Something has to change in my life, and I hope soon. Its getting harder and harder to keep my head up, but I won’t give up.  If you have any advice, please tell me! I would love you forever.

P.S. – Just in case you wanted to know I will get to see O this weekend, and I am very excited!!!!!!

Balancing Act

Hello Friends,

I know it has been a long while since I have last posted. I am truly sorry, but I will explain why in this post. This is a subject that I thought would never involve myself. I have always been independent- that’s just who I am. I don’t mind going somewhere for the first time alone. I can feel comfortable eating out by myself, and I have done it several times. I lived in France alone while I was still a teenager. But now I am in a situation that I didn’t see coming. Without getting too personal or detailed, I am in a relationship. I have been for the past two years. I like to keep a big part of my life private, so I choose not to talk about it often. However, this is an exception.

We met in college, and life was easy. We saw each other on a daily basis, and shared the same friends. After graduation, everything changed. We aren’t in a bubble anymore. The many hypothetical talks about what we will do if one person gets a job away from the other has become a reality – as it does with most relationships upon graduation. (I will use “O” in lieu of their name). O got accepted to an amazing internship in Texas. It is an opportunity of a lifetime! Needless to say O is now in Texas, and I am still here in Georgia.  I haven’t been blogging, because I was spending as much time with O as possible.

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    A screenshot of the distance between O and myself

Now, I have been told by numerous people to never follow someone, and I always thought “well duh”.  I never understood the concept of doing that until now. When you care so much about someone, you never want to leave them. That’s how I felt about O going to Texas. I considered going, and we talked about it. It was decided that it’s best that I stayed and pursue whatever makes me happy. It was hard, but it truly is the best option. O’s internship is only temporary, and we will re-evaluate our next plan of action when the internship finishes.

I am not saying it is a bad choice to move with the one you love. A lot of people have done it and are completely happy. I get it too. Yes, a large portion of your happiness is finding a job you love. However, an equally large portion of your happiness is the person you choose to spend you life with. Think about it, you have to go home to that person everyday! I think it is totally worth it to go with the person you love, but you also have to find happiness yourself.  It truly is a balancing act.

I know it’s cheesy, but it’s true!

That’s the journey I am on while O is in Texas. I have to find what makes me happy.  It is the perfect time to be selfish. Yes I said it…selfish.  Don’t get me wrong – I miss O like crazy! I even bought a fish to distract me for a bit. I have a countdown calendar when O gets back, and I am excited to reconvene come the end of December to talk about our next plan of action together.  But, this is my time right now! I am still on the job search, but I will keep everyone posted.

I would love to hear your stories about balancing relationships with jobs and distance.

I’m Feeling 22!!!

Some of the people I look up to the most are female comedians. They are confident and headstrong and are truly an inspiration to me. In a mostly male-dominated business, these women hold their own and run circles around the big boys!

More specifically the women on Saturday Night Live. Tina Fey, Amy Poehler, and Kristen Wiig are some of the many whom I have idolized every since I could remember. It has always been a secret dream of mine to be on the cast of SNL. Kate McKinnon is especially a role model of mine right now!

Who wouldn’t want to be them!

One of the greatest and original queens of comedy is the one and only Gilda Radner. She was on the flagship cast of SNL. You probably know her for her hilarious Barbra Walters (“Baba Wawa”) impersonation. I sent my freshman year roommate her skit of the Judy Miller Show before we moved in as an example of what life would be like living with me… as a joke of course haha.

               Gilda Radner

Unfortunately Gilda’s life ended too quickly due to cancer. However she left behind a huge legacy and paved the way as well as inspired so many women like myself. Today, I was surfing through tumblr and I stumbled upon this quote from Gilda:

It really hit my core especially with everything happening in my life right now. “Delicious Ambiguity” WOW that’s almost tattoo worthy haha.  Especially since it is my 22nd birthday today, this quote was a nice surprise. I will definitely live by Gilda’s words this year, and see what 22 will bring me!

– I had to ha!

I just thought I’d share it with the rest of you guys, and I would love to know what you think about it.

Wisdom Teeth Epiphany (Not Drug Related at All)

Hello All,

Sorry for the delay. I just got my wisdom teeth out and I have been out of it. Weirdly, I came to this realization while recovering ( and no it is not because of the medicine haha) but I would like to share it with you guys. 

So, I just finished a summer internship for my last school credit to graduate! Yay! I started in May and finished this past friday. If you are curious, I was working for a reality television production company. Anywho, now that I am finished, I find myself even more confused than ever. I thought the internship would give me some clarity or insight, however it did not (which is understandable in hindsight).  How could just one two-month internship answer all of my questions? The answer is…it can’t.  It did help me realize qualities about myself and how I work that are very important to know. For example, I learned the importance of quality but timely work.

Okay I feel like I am rambling, so I will get to the point of this post…my wisdom teeth epiphany. With most people, recovery from surgery is all about what you are feeling (pain and discomfort). But for me, my experience entails what I am not feeling… embarrassment. Luckily for me, my recovery has been pretty painless. In fact, it has been somewhat relieving – let me explain because I know this sound completely off the wall.

Pride is my number one vice. It gets in the way of a lot of opportunities for me. I am pretty proud of the accomplishments I made so far in college and in life. I went from being on top with so much purpose in school to back at home and completely lost – a.k.a. my pride has been hurt. Don’t get me wrong,  I love my family and am very appreciative of my parents and the fact that I can always fall back on them; but there is this huge part of me that cannot accept what is happening. What I have been feeling is embarrassment. I was embarrassed to live back home and I was embarrassed that I was/am lost. The worst thing was when someone asked me if I have found a job yet. My pride would be hurt…until three days ago.

Once, I had my surgery everything stopped. No one asked about jobs, and it was understandable to be resting at home with my parents. I didn’t feel embarrassed.

I realized that it is ok to not know what you want to do. I shouldn’t be embarrassed about this. I cannot let pride hinder my life. I do not know what to do… so what. This doesn’t mean I am not going to stop trying to figure it out. I just wanted to let everyone know that it is ok to be confused and lost, and you should not feel embarrassed. In fact, you should embrace it and used to your advantage.

Trust me, I realize the irony of gaining some wisdom by losing my wisdom teeth haha.

A Little Inspiration from Our Dear Friend Ted

Hello Friends! 

I have a busy schedule this week which I promise to catch all of you up on what I have been up to. That’s for my next blog post; but, for now,  I want to leave everybody with some videos that inspire me. Especially, in this critical and confusing stage of my life after college but not quite in the real world yet.  

I love love love Ted Talks. Instead of listening to music while working (like what normal people do), I listen to talk after talk.  If you want to have a deep, long conversation with me, ask about my favorite Ted Talks.  

So without further ado, here are two wonderful and enriching commencement speeches. The first one is Steve Jobs’ at Stanford University in 2005. The following video is JK Rowling’s speech to Harvard in 2008.  

I hope this was as helpful to you as they are for me, and please let me know what you think. Also, send me your favorite Ted Talks as well!!!  Enjoy!

Steve Jobs giving commencement speech at Stanford

                     

      Link:

Steve Jobs’ Commencement Speech – How to Live Before You Die 

JK Rowling in graduation robes

               

 

 

 

                  Link:

JK Rowling’s Commencement Speech – The Fringe Benefits of Failure